DISCLAIMER – a few words in sentence may be bad so I do apologise for my language but I got angry.
Feelings….the word sounds so simple to say yet when you think about it, feelings is pretty much another way to F**K your mind up, well in my opinion.
Feelings can be all sorts of description such as happy or excited, scared or lonely. For me it makes me feel a little anger yet if someone telling me about their feelings of interest to another, it makes me happy.
Most of the time everyone get feelings even when we don’t want to, we don’t really have a choice. I mean you could get feelings and choose not to act on it but then that just brings another F**K up into your life which is Regret.
I choose not to regret because someone once told me ‘Do not regret doing something because at the time you wanted it.’ So it is all the more reason to act on feeling but the saying also goes both ways if you do not act on feelings for another you will regret because you didn’t do what you would have liked to do.
Maybe it’s because you are scared, worried, your mind assuming and judging what’s best and it then a choice to go with your mind or with your guts as they say. How will you know what will happen if you don’t give it a try. Maybe that other you have feelings for will say yes and feel the same way with you, but if that other is already taken, doesn’t feel the same way or any other of the sort, it’s okay! Yes you will be sad about it but sometimes a friendship can blossom depending on the timeframe and closeness etc. And maybe that other says no because it will ruin the friendship you have or they say no because they see you more a friend than anything else. In my opinion, I will be sad but then I remember I’ve still got them as a friend which is better than nothing.
Long story short – FEELINGS ARE A LOAD OF COMPLICATED F**KED UP VERY CONFUSING PIECE OF INVISIBLE SH*T. Basically.
Due to all of the above that I’ve just said, I have ended up feeling angry and now I guess this post is a rant. I hate feelings but I can’t do nothing about it, which is annoying. Let’s tone it down a bit and say that feelings can actually make me feel lonely amongst other description.
I see on movies, tv programmes and even in books I read, feelings are everywhere and some make relationships blossom and others well to be honest, there’s never really any bad things that happen. Something everyone even myself need to remember LIFE ISNT LIKE THE MOVIES OR IN BOOKS! They make it look so easy and so not real, I know it can be relatable which is true. But it’s not like you walk into a (I don’t know) a bar and see someone who is a complete stranger, immediately have feelings for them and then BAM! A relationship is born. ITS SO UNREAL! (Elle you are ranting again.)
Okay I love seeing relationships blossom, I even catch myself smiling, thinking about what if I had that or why can’t feelings be easy like that or just…basically I forget myself into a world of imaginative and wishes that I feel won’t come true because it’s only ever true in what we watch or read.
No body is perfect. There’s no such thing as perfect because everybody has their flaws. What you watch in movies, tv programmes and books, majority of the character have no flaws and it’s blinded and overpowered by perfection.
Stop trying to be perfect for someone you get feelings for. Don’t try change yourself to be someone you aren’t (for them) and definitely DONT think that you are not worthy because you are not perfect. Everyone is someone’s perfect in their eyes if not your own. Be kind. Be beautiful. Be true.
Signing off with love from my heart to yours E<3